Tuesday, June 21, 2011
I am drawing. I have had a desire to draw ever since seeing the Sol Lewitt drawings at the Met last month. He drew large abstract black charcoal drawings. I have not drawn with charcoal since high school and there is something about charcoal that makes me cringe like chalk on the chalkboard. But seeing these massive black drawings just impressed the desire to handle charcoal again. Charcoal retains the original gesture and leaves beautiful ghost marks.
I am drawing 'Connection' and 'Creation'.
I have been thinking so much about connection and the endless cycle of life and changing or evolving forms of life. We are so stuck on understanding life by what we ordinarily see to the naked eye. We base beliefs around simple ideas based on a sliver of what we know to be true. Today I was imagining a dress that went through a wide field with many openings for peoples heads, so many of us could wear this snaking dress-and we would be all connected (visually)....and then I thought do we need these visual symbols to understand that we are already all connected and touching all the time through all the tiniest molecules and atoms. Truly we are not separated from any living thing, when you realize this you also realize that we are not individual life-but really all of existence is one organism in a constant state of change. We use time to measure change, but time is not real-it is a concept...what is real is that life is constant, and death is not an end it is a point of change. I was reading about cellular growth because my last group of paintings (which I still need to post in their final state) made me think of New Growth in my personal development but they also visually looked like micro-life. After reading about the cellular growth I decided to read about what happens to cells when you die. The very interesting thing is that scientists don't know exactly when you actually die ( a great article about this http://www.time.com/time/health/article/0,8599,1842627,00.html ), because what happens is a series of events in your body and your cells start changing, and start decomposing, but where is your consciousness? Death is not the end of life, but rather the end of what we saw before the moment of death. I also recently watched a TED talk about quantum physics and connections. A scientist Aaron O'connell created the first object visible to the eye that is literally in two places at once. This video has been rolling around in my thoughts-especially what he said at the end of his presentation; "Your connections to everything that is around you, literally define you." http://www.ted.com/talks/aaron_o_connell_making_sense_of_a_visible_quantum_object.html