In hot pursuit (of not knowing)

Untitled, Red 2013 Ink on Paper 8.5" x 11"

Untitled 2013, Plastic, Acrylic, Wood 24" x 24"

Untitled Yellow & Gold Formations 2013 Plastic, Acrylic, String, Wood

Same as above

1st painting

I love the work I am doing in my studio-there is a lot happening and at certain points everything seems far away from each other.  But then I find that regardless of the medium there is commonality and a quest underway...an untitled quest.  

I read by chance today a little note about Don Quixote about the Knights Quest, "it is hopeless and fearless, it is based solely in fulfilling his purpose."  The purpose lies outside of right or wrong, succeeding or failing,  it is his hearts purpose (now I am paraphrasing as I don't have the bit in front of me..) Anyways, I related with that as an artist, as a person, as a truth seeker.  I feel compelled to pursue something deep within me, something instinctual, something which I do not yet know or recognize....but I do feel fear and hope, perhaps that is what I should lay down.  To become fearless with fear.  To be hopeless.  To be.  To follow the lead of my spirit in to my unknown purpose. 

I am reading Sylvia Plaths journals right now.  There is something so special about reading the truth that was not intended to be read by others, its here you find the similarity, where we share our secret shame.  One of the passages I relate so much to (it feels like she wrote my mind) is:  

"There are times when a feeling of expectancy comes to me, as if something is there, beneath the surface of my understanding, waiting for me to grasp it.  It is the same tantalizing sensation when you almost remember a name, but don't quite reach it.  I can feel it when I think of human beings, of hints of evolution suggested by the removal of wisdom teeth, the narrowing of the jaw no longer needed to chew roughage as it was accustomed to; the gradual disappearance of hair from the human body; the adjustment of the human eye to the fine print, the swift, colored motion of the twentieth century.  The feeling comes, vague and nebulous, when I consider the prolonged adolscence of our species, the rites of marriage and deaths; all the primitive barbaric ceremonies streamlined to modern times.  Almost, I think, the unreasoning, bestial purity at best.  Oh, something is there, waiting for me.  Perhaps someday revelation will burst in upon me and I will see the other side of this monumental grotesque joke.  And then I'll laugh.  And then I'll know what life is."

I will be posting more work soon-I have lots to show and tell.  But also, this weekend I have and opening Saturday at the Hudson Opera House.  I am in a very exciting group show with a few amazing contemporary artists.  To name just one: Melora Kuhn! I hope you all can come! 

OF LIGHT AND DARK: Five Artists in Contrast - Exhibition Opening

Hudson Opera House

327 Warren Street, Hudson, New York

SATURDAY MARCH 30TH, from 6 to 8 pm.

DAWN BREEZE
MELORA KUHN
KATE STERLIN
KAHN & SELESNICK
DOUG CLOW

and special guest DJ GIO!!!! will spin for the night.